Tears and the people that make them fall

  I noticed today just how beautiful my friend A.J's sister Jen is. Iv always  known i have a crush on her but i always thought it was just cuz she was insanely hot. no. shes really cool and funny and she does these little voices that just ugh melt my brain.
   Has that ever happened to you? it feels so wrong to fall for you best friends sister. But it feels even more wrong to fall for your best friend... i would know... I fell in love with Shaylene, my ABSOLUTE best friend, about this time last year. we dated for like a week last semester and i still havent quite gotten over her. Shes just so so beautiful! And so funny! and sweet. And did i mention B.E.A.U.T.I.F.U.L? well good cuz she is. i hope, if she reads this, she doesnt get super duper mad at me. i dont like it when shes mad at me...

LOVE That crazy thing that gives you butterflies

Im starting this post with an apology. Im sorry i havent posted in a while. Internet has been down. Now, on to important things. I think i have finally found it. By "it" i mean love. He might be significantly older than me, but all that matters is that we are responsible and we care about each other. I think he is the cutest thing ever and he's sweet. When i see him i get butterflies out the Wazzo, what ever that is. I get all giggly and i act like such a girl! I know what all my friends are talking about now. Love is great. :D 

Friends

Don't you just love that friends are always there for you? I am. My best friend Shaylene is always there for me. Like this one time, my best friend, Pas De Dux partner, and, at the time, boyfriend, Carlos was hit by his understudy's car, which totally ruined his career, I was devastated! She was there for me the entire time. And then my other friend cam is always one of the first to make me laugh :) i think i might be falling in love with him. but i dont know. We'll have to see what progresses :)

Why can't i shut up?

Last night was complete and total hell!!! I got into a fight with Miranda again. she said this "BYE!!! You obviously don't get that i love you! OK? And A.J and i don't know who else will tell you. But obviously u haven't got it yet have you?" So i respond with " I don't think you understand. I do love you. But, I DON'T KNOW WHY!!!! I hate the way you act. i hate how everything is always ALL ABOUT YOU! How it doesnt seem like you give a shit about anything anyone says unless its about you! Im SICK of it!but most of all im sick of loving you even though i cant stand half of what you do and who you are!"

Was that too harsh?

Love, and all that goes with it.

My on again off again gf, Miranda, is starting too piss me off again with all her BS. Its really getting old and i wish she would just STOP and think about how i feel, instead of just always thinking about her and how she feels and what she wants. She's always making crap up too get attention. If she ever knew i felt like this she would kill me. But honestly i don't care. Because if she's gonna be like this, after like an entire year, then i guess she's really not worth it, is she? she's so naive and she acts like she's three, i swear. I don't know what I'm goin to do about this one. I just love her so much. and i have no clue why...

I'm writing this blog to show the world (but mainly calisburg high school) who i really am,  and how i really think about everything. Real names will not be used in this blog but the events will be true. I hope that by starting this blog i can make a difference in my life and possibly the lives of others by showing how i handled some situations.